Ever have one of those days? A day where your reality just seems to be too much reality? Sometimes I find myself here. I try my best to be positive, to put on a happy face and push forward but some days it seems almost impossible. Please pardon my ranting but, I need to let it out.
I have four children, three who have type 1 diabetes. I do my best to stay positive even when it seems impossible but, sometimes the "happy" just isn't there. I feel like I have no control over this disease at all. No matter how many alarms I set, how careful I am to count carbs and bolus there just is no rhyme or reason. So many others post and blog but I find it leaving me even more frustrated. Am I the only one who finds out their child lied about a blood test? Lied about taking a shot or bolusing? Forgot that they need a blood test or insulin? Are we the only ones struggling with higher A1C's? Why do I feel like I am drowning in a see of diabetes? How can I manage this better and have better results? I have found local support group meetings unbearable. Sometimes I can't bring myself to look at facebook. Am I the only one struggling?
I am sure I am not. Why can't we, as parents, be honest about this subject? I know I need support right now but, I haven't been able to find it. So, if you are suffering from too much reality, please message me, email me, talk to me. Maybe we can walk this rough patch together.