Ever have one of those days? A day where your reality just seems to be too much reality? Sometimes I find myself here. I try my best to be positive, to put on a happy face and push forward but some days it seems almost impossible. Please pardon my ranting but, I need to let it out.
I have four children, three who have type 1 diabetes. I do my best to stay positive even when it seems impossible but, sometimes the "happy" just isn't there. I feel like I have no control over this disease at all. No matter how many alarms I set, how careful I am to count carbs and bolus there just is no rhyme or reason. So many others post and blog but I find it leaving me even more frustrated. Am I the only one who finds out their child lied about a blood test? Lied about taking a shot or bolusing? Forgot that they need a blood test or insulin? Are we the only ones struggling with higher A1C's? Why do I feel like I am drowning in a see of diabetes? How can I manage this better and have better results? I have found local support group meetings unbearable. Sometimes I can't bring myself to look at facebook. Am I the only one struggling?
I am sure I am not. Why can't we, as parents, be honest about this subject? I know I need support right now but, I haven't been able to find it. So, if you are suffering from too much reality, please message me, email me, talk to me. Maybe we can walk this rough patch together.
Apparently I was a bit too teary when typing this to notice my typo's!
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